holdon

Nevertheless, it was not easy, with the face of his beloved wifefresh before him, to compose his mind to what it must bear. His holdon life was strong, and it was very, very hard, to loosen;

然而他心爱的妻子的面影在他眼前总还是那么鲜活，使他很难心安理得地引颈就戮，他对生命很执著，极其难以割舍。